I guess I’ve been dwelling a lot in my world of discouragement this week due to the rejections I got from the job interviews. So, the interviewer says I am under qualified to be a secretary. And I am not strategic in my career planning. And I am not selected to be a patient care associate. And I did not get the HR job in the end. And to make things worse, I got scolded and condemned terribly for not returning a call on time which I hesitated because I do not know how to reject politely.
Somehow, I really got a bit depressed. Many times I asked myself, what would it have been had I just remain working in the lab. Maybe I’ll get a very stable job, washing test tubes and preparing agar plates everyday, walking around in white lab coat, looking like a nutty professor. Maybe I’ll always get that ‘wow, you are a laboratory scientist’ impressed look everytime I tell others about my career. But, do people know that a lab technician is a boring job? It is not only technically boring, it is intellectually challenging, and it will make me aged 10 years in a year’s time. From the handful of my Poly school mates who didn’t make it to become Lab Tech today, I guess I really didn’t make a wrong choice. And from the many complains of those who did become Lab Tech today, I am even more sure my choice is right. Anyway, even if I did get into a Lab Tech job today, my pay would have been meager for most of my life as I won’t be able to move up the Laboratory organization ladder as I don’t have the capabilities to go into the detailed study of Life Science, as compared to the Masters and PhD holders of most of the scientists in the field.
Or, did I? Or maybe I could try harder? I don’t know. But I don’t really have the passion to go into the nitty gritty details of the research of Life Science.
I want to go into an exciting world of events coordination, exhibition, or tourism or anything that is more happening than a lab-based job whereby I can predict how my life will turn out 24/7. I know many are condemning my decision. But I cannot be unsure of my decision. Even though the whole world don’t like my decision, I have to like my decision. Because this is my decision.
Fine! I like my decision, and I will still stick to my decision.
May all the negative thoughts flee from me this very moment!
